This is the life I have to face.

It is true I have grown up,I am twenty four years old. But now I find that I am still young,I do not have the full capability to overcome all the sadness,challenges and difficulties. I am still a student, I have to bear many things that my peers need not to bear. I do not have salary,I only have some subsidy offered by my school. In my daily life, unlike other girls, I would not like to spend any money to buy clothes or cosmetics, I try my best to save some money. With the money, I would buy nutritious things or some necessities for my parents, I could help my younger brother. A twenty-four year old girl, at the most wonderful age, without any decoration,looks like a thirty years old woman. Many classmates often ask me why I do not buy nice clothes,why I do not like doing shopping,why I do not go out to have fun on weekends,why I do not have the same hobbies as other girls have. I have to say I have my own reasons, but I do not want to tell others. When I am helpless, I would more likely tell myself that though my parents did not offer me a rich family, they had done the most they could do to create chances for me to obtain a bright future,so I should work hard no matter what kind of diffculties I would face in the future, not only for my parents but also for myself. I also encourage myself that I could realize my dream someday as long as I devote all my endeavor. Now my dream is going to come true, but I feel intimidated. I have a dream that I could get a job here in my school, also a workplace. I have worked for almost a month here even though I am a student, within this month, I strongly feel that the hierarchy obviously exist. Your leaders always ask you to do this ,to do that,but they seldom treat you as a true friend. If you do not accomplish the task they give to you, they would lose their temper, then what waits for you is anger, unsatisfication,and disappointment. Even though you have tried your best and spent a lot of time, as long as you have not perfected your job, they would say no to your ability regardless of your efforts. This is not what I want, sometimes I really feel very sad about that. I feel helpless. Nonetheless, this is life. Somebody has said, if you can not change the life, then try to adapt it . I would do like that ,because I could not change it ,at least I can not make it now. What I need to do is to learn to be strong, to be tough, to be diplomatic, because these are secrets to have a place to stand in the society. I know that lots of difficulties are waiting for me on my way, sincerely speaking , I have not had full preparation. Anyway, I would try my best to conquer them. Here I just want to express my present feelings, the main reason is that I could not tell others about this even my respected and beloved parents. To be successful , there is a painful ,sad, hard process I have to experience on my own. After saying something here, I feel much better, I believe everything could go smoothly gradually. Be optimistic! The cloudy days would go away someday.